TOMS Shoes

So today I was watching tv and the AT&T commercial came on for TOMS Shoes and I got really inspired.  The first thing I did was buy a pair of shoes and check out their site.  I needed new shoes for work anyway so I figured it wasn't too spur of the moment!

So I found out just how cool TOMS is, and I even applied for a position with them!  I think that everyone should check them out because really what better way to help change the world, by doing it one pair of shoes at a time!  Anyway here is all the info, hope you all get as inspired and motivated as I did!

www.tomsshoes.com

Community - Purchase TOMS Shoes & A Pair of Shoes is Given to a Child in Need - One for One - Official Store - TOMSshoes.com 

Community - Purchase TOMS Shoes & A Pair of Shoes is Given to a Child in Need - One for One - Official Store - TOMSshoes.com

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Green and still

So I titled this green and still because Iowa is so absolutely green right now it amazes me every single day.  For anyone who has not been here in the spring time, it's worth a trip, I love the country, I'm sure I am a little bias but it really is beautiful!

As for being still, I am learning to be still.  I have been keeping my mind running the past weeks trying to 'figure things out' when really all I should be doing is living in the moment and letting things work themselves out, no matter how much I try and alter my course in the end I do a lot of worrying than need be.  So I am being still at the moment and enjoying what comes.

I will post pictures later of this wonderful place I call home.

Following God

So my struggle with where I am supposed to be is very evident.  So I am turning to God to lead me and show me where I am supposed to be.  I am trying to look for signs and be patient.  Maybe I am just too intent of figuring it out, or maybe I just want to influence my own decision, but I am constantly torn.

On one hand, doors have closed in Haiti where the grant is concerned.  The people I worked with didn't want me to leave and want me to come back.  But whenever I try to find out information about money I get nowhere.

But on the other hand, doors are starting to open back up to go back to Haiti and work for a company instead of trying to live off grants, which is what I want and a more sustainable way to live in Haiti.

However, I just got a job yesterday and I start today.  I have been excelling in my schoolwork now that I have more time and constant internet connection.   I am also starting to get involved in my church again and taking over our VBS program for the summer.    

Iowa is beautiful and where my roots are, but Haiti is equally as beautiful and where I can see my future...

More later, I'll keep praying

Iowa

Back in Iowa.  I seem to have two homes now, and sometimes it's amazing, but sometimes its very difficult.  I miss everyone back in Haiti, I even have been tempted to buy a ticket and go back.  But I realize that there were reasons I came back and I need to stick to my decision.  

It has been nice to see family and friends again. The internet has been wonderful and I am even ahead of schedule on my classes instead of constantly behind.  So I can't say that I don't like being back and taking nice hot showers!  However I am constantly thinking of Haiti and remembering everyone that is there at this moment.  I think part of it is that my relationships with them are so new and still fragile, whereas I know I can always come back here and re-connect with my friends and family.

Lord, help me to know I am doing what is right in your eyes.  Help me to see what it is that you want me to be doing and where because that is where I know I will truly be content.  Mesi.

What is Pwoje Espwa

On the plane ride back to Iowa, all I could think about was Espwa.  I kept thinking of the family that is has grown to be for me.  I really can't describe to you the feeling each day when kids come up and hug and kiss you and the love that I have for them.  I guess parents would understand, and maybe that is just how I think of myself, and a mother to these children.  It has been the biggest culture shock yet coming back into the States.  Everything here is so fast and busy.  The first time I see everyone they say hi and then rush off to do whatever it is they need to do.  I understand, but it just makes me wonder why I want this life, or if I do?

Maybe I am just missing my kids, maybe I expected more of a welcome home, or maybe my heart is right and God really wants me to be back home at Pwoje Espwa.  My home here in Iowa is beautiful and luxurious, it has warm showers and plenty of chocolate.  But it is missing something, its missing the boys, their love, its missing purpose.

Haiti has stolen my heart, mwen sonje ou Ayiti

Confused

Today I am lost.  I financially cannot return to Haiti after I leave May 12th.  I know that this is where my heart is and where I should be.   It seems like I am making the right decision by leaving to go take care of my finances... but is it?

Jacob and Esau

This past Sunday we talked about the story of Jacob and Esau.  We read the story and then talked about how we should act with our brothers.  We also did some coloring, singing, and praying.  Right after we dismissed two little boys started fighting about their place in line... I'm hoping at least a few got the message